Welcome to the Circus

Literally. My life is unraveling like the opening show of a circus. You know, the small duo or trio they hire to entertain the crowd in destraction while they anxiously and impatiently await the flame-throwing, ball-juggling, tiger-taming clowns. I am that trio. I'm the underpaid, overqualified, superior perfectionist that is juggling an act that I've practiced day by day for months (years, even) just so that I could find myself in the midst of this moment. Before you know it, you find yourself on stage performing and the crowd is hyped. Even if they aren't necessarily hyped about you, the enthusiasm they present for the main act is displayed which makes you feel welcomed. But before you know it, those rude, overpaid, underqualified, nasty, hateful clowns interupt your performance. They cut you short by ten minutes and take over the stage. This, my friend, is what my life feels like.

I am constantly asking myself, "What was I thinking?" Why do I take on more than I can handle? Why do I seem to have no time in a single day to accomplish ONE, just one tiny thing, on my to-do list. My to-do list has become more of a to-do book. Seriously.

This was seriously my thoughts the entire class.

Work has been crazy lately. In the midst of a new job offering, then having to weigh out all of the pros and cons of taking the new job vs. staying at my current job. Oh, and not to mention having Algebra and Organizational Management finals this week. Two weeks ago I swore that college algebra would be the death of me. I seriously did not think I would make it through this class. It has officially kicked my butt. Luckily, I did pass my final exam which will for certain boost my grade and pass the class so that I don't have to worry about retaking it. The entire eight weeks of the class I asked myself, "WHEN am I ever going to need this?" I highly doubt I will be required to factor polynomials or simplify radical expressions within my law career. Oh well.

On a lighter note, my house is clean (somewhat) and I am getting a kick-A start on my mile-high pile of laundry that I've been lacking the time to do for weeks now. I still feel very unorganized. I don't feel like my house and/or life will ever be 100% organized ever again. I have this week off from classes  before my summer term begins. I am totally taking advantage of it. Say hello to Mrs. Clean!